count my blessing

feels like yesterday, i was 17... ga nyangka.. waktu lewat cepet buanget... hiks.. bener2 ga kerasa.. skrg udh 2012.. umur gw brarti udah nambah brp tuh.. (biarkan itu jadi misteri aja ya :p)
well, pokonya gw lagi ngerasa tua hari ini.. dan ngerasa banyak waktu yg kebuang sia2... tiap taun bikin resolusi, tapi ampir sebagian besar ga terpenuhi. hayah.... resolusi tinggal resolusi...
well, mungkin diumur gw yg udah bisa dibilang udah bukan abege lageh... ada baiknya gw belajar merenung.. apa yg udah gw capai sekarang, dan juga belajar buat menghitung berkat..
ah.. apa yg harus saya itung ya? wah.. banyak juga sih berkat yg udah Tuhan kasi buat gw selama ini..
1. Orang tua,dede2, ipar2 dan ponakan ganteng yang paling gw sayang di dunia ini...
2. few my best friends... ada yg dari smp, sma, kuliah, dan jg yg baru kenal seudah gw lulus kuliah.. promise you guys, i won't let you down.. kalo ada salah2 kata yg pernah gw ucapin.. so so sorry (lagak gw koq kaya yg mau kemana aja ya.. *geleng2)
3. harta bergerak dan harta tak bergerak yg selama ini Tuhan selalu beri
4. kesehatan (biarpun diet kaga turun2)
5. kerjaan (biarpun gw sering ngomel, seharusnya gw bersyukur masih punya kerjaan)
6. dan yang paling utama, gw punya Tuhan.. yah biarpun gw ini ga baek2 amat, masi banyak melencengnya, tapi saya bangga masi punya Tuhan yg slalu dukung gw sampe gw bisa kaya skrg

ahh... ternyata oh ternyata, berkat yg saya miliki banyak yah.. wuih.. gile. gw jadi ngerasa idup gw ini beruntung banget.. apa yg gw punya selama ini, harus disyukuri...
yah.. moga2 dengan bertambahnya umur gw, gw diberikan otak yg tambah lurus.. harus lebih dewasa jg dalam bersikap..

resolusi 2012? OH NO!!

wah.. ga kerasa udah masuk taun 2012.. hayahh... makin tua deh gw... dipikir2 di taun baru ini, gw masih belom bikin resolusi... kayanya makin skeptis aja nih gw...
apa ya kira2 resolusi paling penting yg harus gw capai?
KAWINNN?? hahaha... iya juga sih.. udh umur sgini, masih belom kawin.. waduh.. udah dar der dor kiri kanan... pengen sih.. cuman ya gimana??? belom aja ada yg cocok.. nah itu yg susah...
COCOK... ada yg bisa bantu? what should i do?? heleppp...

me and my bad influence...

last nite seems my insomnia strucks back... dunno why i got this thought on my mind.. what would this world be without me.. is it better? i think so.. hahaha.... look's like i'm not good enuf for people around me, fams n friends also my works.. it's all about me and my bad influence.. my parents wouldn't have to confused about me.. my friends wouldn't have to try so hard just to stay away from me.. and my works.. i know they could find a better supervisor than me...


hahaha.. blah blah blah.. just my unimportant opinion...

cowo sensi ke laut ajeeee

bah... gw paling sebel ama cowo sensi, cemen trus kepo... bah bah bah....
masih kesel gw ama yg kemaren2.. huhhhh!!!

tadinya mau posting tgl 20 oktober 2010 jam 20.10 tapi kelupaan.. huhuhu

I NEVER LIKED YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm sick of this dirty dress
I'm thinking I might do less, now
There's something I must confess, to you
You know how everydays
The same old everyways, well
I've got a secret to tell
I can't contain it anymore
Who's knocking at your door?

Hey! Surprise!
I never liked you, even when I tried to
Don't speak now it's my turn baby uh uh
I never liked you, and I won't pretend to

Hey! Look twice!
I never liked you even when I tried to
Can't you see the curtain's falling uh uh
Is there a reason you're still hangin' around?

That's right I'm waving goodbye
You always thought I'd play nice, well
You never thought at all
You look a little distressed
Am I looking my best, now
Here's something you can't possess

I can't contain it anymore
Who's knocking at your door?

Hey! Surprise!
I never liked you, even when I tried to
Don't speak now it's my turn baby uh uh
I never liked you, and I won't pretend to

Hey! Look twice!
I never liked you even when I tried to
Can't you see the curtain's falling uh uh
Is there a reason you're still hangin' around?

How could it suddenly be that we've come to this?
I'll drag you down to me, and then I'll switch your place
So you're the one that's stuck here with a picture of my face

Hey! Surprise!
I never liked you, even when I tried to
Don't speak now it's my turn baby uh uh
I never liked you, and I won't pretend to

Hey! Look twice!
I never liked you even when I tried to
Can't you see the curtain's falling uh uh

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pemalesan...

mau bikin sinopsis pelem2 yg udah gw tonton.. cuman terus terang... udh luamaa gw ga nonton pelem.. trakhir gw nonton district 9.. (yeah.. gw baru ntn skrg..) malah ketiduran...payah... apakah ini pertanda dirikyu yg semakin menua?? hooooouuu nouuuu... :((

love the way you lie

[Chorus - Rihanna:]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[Eminem]
I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now it's a steel knife in my windpipe
I can't breathe but I still fight while I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right it's like I'm in flight
High off of love, drunk from my hate,
It's like I'm huffing paint and I love it the more I suffer, I suffocate
And right before I'm about to drown, she resuscitates me
She fucking hates me and I love it.
Wait! Where you going?
"I'm leaving you"
No you ain't. Come back we're running right back.
Here we go again
It's so insane cause when it's going good, it's going great
I'm Superman with the wind at his back, she's Lois Lane
But when it's bad it's awful, I feel so ashamed I snapped
Who's that dude? I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her, I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

[Chorus - Rihanna:]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[Eminem]
You ever love somebody so much you can barely breathe
When you're with 'em
You meet and neither one of you even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah, them those chills you used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick of looking at 'em
You swore you'd never hit 'em; never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face spewing venom in your words when you spit them
You push pull each other's hair, scratch claw hit 'em
Throw 'em down pin 'em
So lost in the moments when you're in them
It's the rage that took over it controls you both
So they say you're best to go your separate ways
Guess if they don't know you 'cause today that was yesterday
Yesterday is over, it's a different day
Sound like broken records playing over but you promised her
Next time you show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

[Chorus - Rihanna:]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[Eminem]
Now I know we said things, did things that we didn't mean
And we fall back into the same patterns, same routine
But your temper's just as bad as mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love you're just as blinded
Baby, please come back
It wasn't you, baby it was me
Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is I love you too much to walk away though
Come inside, pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk
I told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed, I'll aim my fist at the drywall
Next time. There won't be no next time
I apologize even though I know its lies
I'm tired of the games I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
Im'a tie her to the bed and set this house on fire
I'm just gonna

[Chorus - Rihanna:]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

dor dor dor

hatchiiiii... hatchiiiiii...


*mau post..tp ga tau mo post apaan.. :p

ijin pulang duluan

and the last one... this was one of an urban legend in my campus.. :p although the story wasn't the same, i took some parts for this story..

tumben2nya hari itu jejem merasa males buat masuk kelas. "duh.. males bener nih gw hari ini.. ah, kalo gitu ga usah masuk chapter baru dah.. adain kuis dadakan aja.. biar gw bisa nyantai". Jejem memang sudah skitar 6 bulan jadi dosen di sebuah universitas swasta ternama di kota Y. sebelumnya dia tinggal di oz. sekitar 1 taun yg lalu, dia dipanggil pulang oleh bonyoknya, karena mereka berdua merasa kesepian ditinggal anak semata wayangnya.
Jejem kemudian melamar sebagai dosen di universitas tempat dia menuntut ilmu S1 nya sebelom dia melanjutkan studi di oz.

*****
"selamat siang sodara2, hari ini saya akan mengadakan kuis dadakan chapter 10. smua text book harap disingkirkan dari atas meja".
"yahhhhh!!! huuuu!!! boooo!!!.. waduhhh! mati gw!".. banyak keluhan dari anak2 di kelasnya. sementara jejem hanya senyum2 sendiri melihat kelakuan anak2 didiknya.
"cepat!! semakin cepat kita mulai, semakin cepat kita pulang lohhh!" jejem berkata. "cepet pa.. wong ga belajar, mana bisa jawab!" seloroh centri, yang memang selalu tidur dikelas.
"dah..skrg kalian jgn berbicara lagi. saya akan bagikan soalnya" jejem berkata. dia kemudian membagikan soal ke sekitar 30 orang mahasiswa di kelas itu.

******
15 menit kemudian, seorang mahasiswa cantik mengacungkan tangannya. "ya ada apa kamu?" tanya jejem sembari diam2 mengagumi kecantikan mahasiswi itu. "permisi pa, bolehkah saya pamit pulang terlebih dahulu?" mahasiswi itu bertanya. "loh, baru 15 menit nih, emang kamu udah beres ngerjain soalnya?" jejem bertanya kebingungan.
"belum pak, tapi saya ada perlu nih" mahasiswi berkata sambil berdiri. "eh tunggu2, saya belum kasih kamu ijin". "nama kamu siapa?" tanya jejem. "nama saya stifani, pak". tanpa diberikan aba2, stifani itu kemudian maju dan berjalan ke arah jendela. "loh, pintu kan sebelah...." belum selesai jejem berkata, stifani kemudian melangkah menembus pintu jendela disaksikan jejem yang terbengong bengong dan 29 pasang mata yang melotot.

*****

the end

nama dan kesamaan tokoh hanya kebetulan belaka.
cerita ini diilhami oleh urban legend di kampus gw dulu yang katanya pernah ada cewe keluar waktu tengah2 kuliah dengan cara nembus tembok

BIDIE & MAMA

ini jg salah satu cerita gw di forum itu.. gw pengen ngamanin aja, seblom cerita ini entah kemana.. :p

"hosh hosh hosh"... bidie berlari2 sambil menembus rerumputan setinggi tubuhnya... "mamaaaa.... aku takut" ,jerit bidie dalam hatinya. sementara itu terdengar langkah lari dibelakangnya semakin kencang. bidie yang kecapaian setelah berlari akhirnya jatuh.
"mamaaaa..tolongggggg!!!!" tangisnya ketika mendengar langkah lari itu semakin kencang dan mendekati dirinya.
"bidie... jangan takut sayang.. ini mama", kata suara langkah itu berbicara. "bukan!! kamu bukan mamaku!" bidie berteriak sambil terus menangis termehek mehek. "mamaku cantik, kamu ga cantik!" bidie masih terus menangis.
"maafkan mama, bidie. mama abis suntik silikon, taunya gagal, jadi idung mama kaya mpok ati gini.. maaf ya bidieee", mama bidie berkata sambil menahan mau nangis, tapi ga bisa karena idungnya masi sakit.
"MAMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA...HUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! !!!"

DIET PLEASEEE!!!!

huaaaaaaaaaa.. looks like i'm gettin' fatter... gotta go on a diet...

fighting!!!!!!!! no pain no gain!!!! :p :p

nasi gorengggg

mendadak pengen nasi goreng... asin pedes.....

*ngacai modeon

SWEET ESCAPE

lagi dengerin lagu ini... jadi inget memory masa lalu.. :p






If I could escape I would but, first of all, let me say
I must apologize for acting stank and treating you this way
'cause I've been acting like sour milk all on the floor
It's your fault you didn't shut the refrigerator
Maybe that's the reason I've been acting so cold?

If I could escape and recreate a place that's my own world
And I could be your favorite girl forever, perfectly together
Tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet?
(The sweet escape)

If I could be sweet
(Sorry boy)
I know I've been a real bad girl
(I'll try to change)
I didn't mean for you to get hurt whatsoever
We can make it better
Tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet?
(Sweet escape, sweet escape)

I want to get away to our sweet escape
I want to get away, yeah

You held me down, I'm at my lowest boiling point
Come help me out, I need to get me out of this joint
Come on let's bounce, counting on you to turn me around
Instead of clowning around, let's look for some common ground

So baby, times get a little crazy
I've been getting a little lazy waiting on you to come save me
I can see that your angry by the way that you treat me
Hopefully you don't leave me, wanna take you with me

If I could escape and recreate a place that's my own world
And I could be your favorite girl forever, perfectly together
And tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet?
(The sweet escape)

If I could be sweet
(Sorry boy)
I know I've been a real bad girl
(I'll try to change)
I didn't mean for you to get hurt whatsoever
We can make it better
And tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet?
(Sweet escape, sweet escape)

If I could escape, if I could escape

'Cause I've been acting like sour milk all on the floor
It?s your fault you didn't shut the refrigerator
Maybe that's the reason I've been acting so cold?

If I could escape and recreate a place that's my own world
And I could be your favorite girl forever, perfectly together
And tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet?
(The sweet escape)

If I could be sweet
(Sorry boy)
I know i've been a real bad girl
(i'll try to change)
I didn't mean for you to get hurt whatsoever
We can make it better
And tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet?
(Sweet escape, sweet escape)

I want to get away to our sweet escape
I want to get away, yeah

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i told ya!

hey! i told ya... gw udah ga maw jadi TL!!!... kalo skrg gw ogah ikut outbond dll sebagainya.. don't blame me!.. told ya b4!... many thanks!

shit argen.. fuck germany

geblek... bek jerman smuanya rapet absi maennya.. jagoan booo... hell no!!!.... sayangnya pemaen argen tuh cebol2 smua.. jadi susah kalo duel udara.. :( let's hope gocekan pemaennya bisa ngasilin gol.. walaupun gw rada ragu.. go argennn...hahaha

need a mood booster plz... :D

satu hal yg bikin gw ngerasa keganggu akhir2 ini.. mood gw bener2 helpless dah.. turun naek drastis.. dari hepi bisa jadi bete dalam sekejab.. dohhh... help me dah... somebody pliz cure me! haha.. i need a mood booster...

italy mi amore..

baru inget gw lom curhat kebetean gw gara2 italy jelek.. huhuhu.. bener2 bikin mood nonton world cup berkurang... yah.. emang sih dari awal ntn gw ga ngejagoin italy. secara materi pemaen aja udah acak2an.. pokonya gw udah skeptisss abissssss.... eh ternyata bener dong.. kaga pernah menang selama babak grup.. wadda a team!!! come on italy.. u guyz can do better than diz!! yah.. skrg gw masi ga punya negara jagoan.. mau jagoin argentina.. mmm jago sih.. seneng juga liat pemaennya specially messi, tp gw ga bisa jatoh cinta ama tim ini.. ga tau nape.. portugal? mmm.. okey sih.. perkasa banget bisa menang 7-0.. tapi yah.. gitu deh.. inggris? ga ada beckhammmmm!!! so.. gw ga dukung inggris skrg..hahha.. brazil, spanyol, jerman? spanyol cakep2 sih.. ada villa juga.. tp teteuuppp.. ga bikin gw jatuh cinta.. hahahaha.. yahhh.. taun ini gw pegang argen deh.. tapi bukan brarti gw demen ama tim ini.. hahahahaha...

arrivederci mi italy..

uruguay yipieee!!!

well well... ga kerasa world cup udah masuk babak 16 besar.. dan 1st team yg masuk quarter final adalah uruguay.. yup.. mereka sukses menumbangkan (ciee bahasa gw) tim ginseng korsel dgn skor 2-1.. mantabhhh.. yah biarpun korsel udah mati2an usaha.. tapi tetep akhirnya uruguay yg menang... oyah.. tadi kayanya korsel kena tiang gawang tuh.. hihihi.. apakah kutukan tiang gawang berlaku skrg? hahaha.. halah takhayulll...

stay away!!

well, yes.. i'm not in the good mood recently... maybe it's bcoz of my overload jobs in my office. so.. rite now, i'm not a friendly person.. maybe for some people i'm good.. but for annoying people?.. huh.. me no like talked much.. haha.. so don't make me angry.. u won't like me when i'm angry.. :D